#3 Fragile Lie

what if she did like me? 

it's something that I think about from time to time..

.....i accidentally lost my progress of my rant.. I'll just summarize it

- she's easy to read

- her lies are always obvious to me

- she had a crush she wanted no one to know about and it might've been me

- she admitted she constantly tries to act casual around this crush

- 1st time I pressed on her abt if she reluctantly said the name (someone I don't recognize or know) after 3 days of persistence 

- 2nd time I asked casually months later it was a different name

continuing on where I left off.. honestly when I lie, I tend to make myself believe that lie and make a false memory, not remembering the actual truth before actually trying to remember it lmao

so. her. it could've been me. that crush. it was weird and unusual, she would've gushed about this crush to me easily if it was someone I don't know. even if it was someone I knew, we were closer than ever, enough for her to trust me to keep it a secret..

but what if that someone was me? ofc she wouldn't be able to gush about this crush in front of said crush!!!... I'm delulu. I'm just coping. I might be too old for this stupid love drama that all happened last year anyway she has a bf now, since January they're official, situationship for months

oh and happy lunar new year!