#2 Not Lovable

I honestly don't know what to do anymore.. I had always been unconsciously thinking I'd end myself after highschool.. idk

anyway, I've been thinking that I maybe should start dieting or something, I gained a lot past 2 years but I guess that's because I'm a growing teen

but still.. imagery issues

I've always wondered if my exes in the past genuinely liked me and not see me as just someone to pass time with

cause I could never imagine..!! someone genuinely smiling when they see me text.. that's impossible.. someone that's happy to see me simply smile.. a myth! someone!! that likes me!! absolute miracle from God himself lowkey lmao..

not even saying this in a self deprecating way but I really just can't imagine someone genuinely loving me unconditionally.. even my parents don't do that